If you could wind time back 10 years, would you?

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I believe everything happens for a reason. There have been many times in my life when I’ve regretted doing something and wished I could turn the time back. People came in and out of my life as they pleased but I was never afraid to speak up, say how I felt or more importantly how they made me feel. The older I grow the clearer I’m starting to see that life is too short. How am I 30 already??!! Where’s the time gone? Sometimes you have to be brave enough to close one door to open another.

I had many hates growing up, limited friends, and a very closed mind. I was negative, indecisive and a very jealous person. I couldn’t wait to grow up, get a job and move out. I think moving out was the making of me. I became independent very quickly making my own choices, when I wanted and how I wanted. I was working full-time, doing a part-time hairdressing  course at college in the evenings, paying my own bills. Life was good, but I felt lonely if I’m honest and longed for a family. Something to call my own, something no-one could take away from me.

Look at me now 2 beautiful children that I would go to the ends of the earth for. If you asked me 10 years ago ‘where I’d see myself in 10 years’ I would never have dreamt my life the way it is now, I feel so blessed. Just like everyone (even if they don’t talk about it) my life has had its ups and downs and rollercoaster rides.

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Would I wind time back 10 years and start over again if I could? Not in a million years!!!

Obviously I wouldn’t have my babies and I can’t imagine life without them both. I’m everything I am today because of the challenges I’ve experienced, the people I’ve met and the situations I’ve put myself in. If I went back 10 years and lived the perfect life without a single bad moment then it wouldn’t the strong-minded, independent person I am today. So thanks to everyone that’s been part of my life in the last 10 years and thanks for being honest and choosing to either leave or stay.

I feel lucky in a way to see things so literal. Having small children has made me even more aware of my surroundings, the type of people I want/ need in our lives and that actually life is pretty good. I certainly wouldn’t want to experience the last 10 years again but like I said at the start I believe everything happens for a reason.

Would you turn time back if you could?

C x

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